we will be snuggling with our little bundle!!! that was the very first thought in my head this morning when i woke up. “he will be here…. paul and i will be parents.” goodness, that thought just overwhelms me. i am sitting at my laptop right now and i don’t even know what to write because i’m so beside myself with…. everything…. joy (of course), anxiety, excitement, terror, giddyness, amazement…. WOW!!!!

i had my last regular doctor’s check up today, and the gate is still closed. no action, no dilation, no effacement, NUTHIN!!! hooray for that. i’m not even contracting. homeboy is just chillin in there and putting on some serious poundige until his birthday comes. i did however gain 3 lbs in the last week (ha!!!) which now puts me at 25 total lbs gained. my blood pressure was about as perfect as it can be at 122/70 and the baby’s heart rate was wonderful as well. all in all things are fabulous for the little man and i, with the exception of his insane size and the fact that i feel like he’s going to ninja kick his way out of my belly whenever he moves, which is constantly.

i am very VERY ready to have this child out of my body. of course i want to meet him and see him and hold him, etc etc…. selfishly, i want him out because he is so big and i am so uncomfortable. i have officially moved into the guest bedroom, which makes me so sad. paul and i have to sleep apart from each other enough, but to do that now, when he’s home just pains me. my heart burn and acid reflux is just horrible with the baby being so big and heavy, so i have to sleep practically up-right to have any sort of relief. the glider chair we have would be a perfect solution except again, the baby is so big and heavy, that i need to be supported (ok, flanked) by pillows on each side of me so that he doesn’t pull me from side to side when he leans. the numerous pillows i use of course would not fit in our glider chair…. thus, i am in the guest bedroom, in all my pregnant glory.

i’m not going too far these days, partially because i am slower than a tortoise on a good day, and partially because i’m a little scared of going out and something happening. i can’t drive anywhere in my car without mom saying “be careful,” so i know other people are thinking i shouldn’t be going far right now too. i made a big trip to the grocery store today, stocking up on essentials. afterwards i was on the couch for an hour until my doctor’s appointment. hopefully the rest of this week will go by quickly so i don’t go too stir crazy.

my pre-op appointment is on monday. 95% of that will be paperwork, signing off that i give consent for my doctor to perform surgery, etc, etc…. she’ll do a short check up on me and the baby, and that’ll be it. tuesday we will have a baby boy!!!!

please keep the thoughts and prayers coming…. especially that “the gate” remains closed.