make me feel like i can actually function as a mom. today has been a really good day for jackson, and for so long those good days have been few and far between. for so long it felt like paul and i had to operate in survival mode… we had to. but today was a really good day for him, and so not only do i end up feeling proud of jackson but also feeling super proud of myself and of paul. we were able to go out and function as a 3 person family today… like out in public… and while it sounds crazy to some (ok most) of you, those of you who have followed jackson’s story so closely can appreciate what i mean when i say that. we went out to do some christmas shopping and one of jackson’s feedings came during the time we were out, so we had to do a feeding in public. (again, those of you who know what the last 7 months have been like for us know what kind of anxiety attacks i endure when i am forced to publicly feed jackson). today’s was awesome… dare i say, even fun… while paul and i enjoyed burritos at chipotle, jackson enjoyed his baby food in a highchair with us. we had given him his medicine in the car prior to the feeding and had left for our shopping excursion fully equipt with anything jackson could possibly be interested in eating. and we succeeded. once we left chipotle and got in the car, paul and i high fived and took a moment to bask in the glory of enjoying a couple of hours out and a feeding as a family. i know, i know… some of you read this and must think, “good god she has lost it.” and maybe i have… but one thing is for sure… those couple of hours that we were on our excursion today were awesome. jackson celebrated his victory with a rockin afternoon nap, and when paul and i found him awake this afternoon, we found him as such…

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