i did it.  i saw twlight’s new moon last night… and yes, it was satisfying in every possible way.

*NOTE: THIS IS NOT A SPOILER POST FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVEN’T SEEN THE MOVIE.*

instead, it’s a post about desire… wants… needs.  and do we not all possess these things, these aspects within ourselves? perhaps at times we choose to hide them away, even neglect their existence all together, not yet ready to share them.

sharing our wants, needs, desires makes us vulnerable.

men… women… people have desires.  desires change with age and circumstance, but i believe, at the core of one’s being is one’s ultimate desire.

whether that is to pursue one’s career to the point of excellence, a life-long dream to climb mt. everest or travel the world, write a book (or several)… or even to find love.

not just love in the platonic form, but to find that all-encompassing, passionate, i-cannot-live-without-you IN LOVE feeling and desire to be with the one who makes you breathe a little stronger, stand a little taller and smile incessantly not fully understanding the reason why.

THAT is what sparked my interest in this whole twilight saga.  

i didn’t watch the first movie until just a few months ago.  and i’ve forced my husband to watch it with me twice since.  and yes, i admit it, i am a twitard, according to a friend of mine by definition of the washington post.

so when the previews for new moon began, i felt my inner girl get giddy. but i wasn’t giddy for edward cullen’s luscious locks, or jacob what’s-his-last-name’s 16 pack abs.

that’s what the tweens were there for; or at least it seemed that way as we waited in line and listened to a gaggle of girls in high school gush about a boy who they knew liked one of the girls in their gaggle, yet this boy had not yet “asked her out.”

OH THE AGONY!!!!!! THE LONGING!!!!!! THE HOPE, DESPAIR AND TEENAGE ANGST!!!!!!

have we not all been there before?

but again, that’s not exactly why i was there, standing in a line marked off by ropes, leading us into the theater like cows in a coral… going in for the slaughter.

i was there to watch a great love story.

that’s what i desire… a great love story. whether it is recounting my own with my husband, or hearing “the greatest love story of all time” from a friend of mine who is in the midst of filling her heart with the love of another as i write this post… (you know who you are, my beautiful friend who is so deserving of every bit of happiness.)

we each have different needs, different dreams to pursue… desires to be fulfilled.

and so after the movie mayhem, having my desire of seeing a great love story fulfilled, we returned home, discussed the movie a bit and then went in the magoo’s room and watched his belly rise and fall as he slept in the subtle nightlight of winnie the pooh.

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my ultimate desire… the thing i want most and strive for on a daily basis… is to live a passionate existence.

it may sound simple, but it’s not. somedays it’s harder than others… yet still, living a passionate existence is my ultimate desire.

what’s yours???

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