lollipops for breakfast
“mama are you a scary dinosaur?”
“RAAAAR.”
(giggles)
“mama are you a baby cow?”
“moooo.”
(more giggles)
“mama are you a big tiger?”
“GRRRR…”
(giggles)
“mama are you sad?”
“yes baby. mom’s a little sad. but it’s ok to be sad sometimes.”
“i’m sad too mama.”
**********
i was pregnant a few weeks ago.
and so i’ve been quiet. reflecting a lot. sleeping more than normal. less time here and more time there. taking care of me and what was going on within me.
and then i miscarried.
and so i’m still a little quiet. reflecting a lot. not sleeping. spending less time here and more time there. taking care of me and healing.
**********
“mama are you a scary dinosaur?”
“RAAAAR.”
(giggles)
“mama are you a baby cow?”
“moooo.”
(more giggles)
“mama are you a big tiger?”
“GRRRR…”
(giggles)
“mama are you happy?”
“yes baby. you make me very happy.”
“i’m happy with you too mama.”
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i’m sorry sweetie
What a sweet boy.
I’m so sorry for your loss. *HUGS*
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*hug*
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Oh, sweet friend, I’m so sorry. Giant hugs to you.
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Oh sweet lady, I am so sorry. Hugs to you.
Beth´s last [type] ..One Year
Oh Nic, I know how bad that hurts…I’ve been there far too many times.
I’m sending you a big hug and prayers for healing and peace.
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What a sweet little boy you have. I’m so sorry for your loss, Nic. xoxo
Oh pretty lady, I’m so sorry.
Although no words can make anything better, please know you are in my thoughts. Hugs.
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So sorry.
This breaks my heart.
I’m so sorry. I’m glad you have the wonderful Magoo to lift your spirits a bit.
Oh Nic, I am so sorry sweetie. So many hugs to you!
So sorry. Hugs to you and your adorable boy.
I’m heartbroken for you. It’s a profound and lasting loss, and I wish you comfort, quiet and healing. My thoughts are with you, your husband, the family.
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this makes me want to run to DC and give you a big hug. Glad Magoo is there to do it for me! Have him give you a million hugs and kisses for me!
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I am so sorry Nicole. I’ve been there. It is a hard place to be. Take care of you.
Awww…..SHIT.
Sorry, not very eloquent I know but from one member of ‘Been There Done That Got The T-Shirt’ club to another? I’m here if you need to be chatty and stuff.
Shit. Love you hon.
*HUGS*
Be well, be safe, be happy, bed blessed! My wish for you:Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows,
Everything that’s wonderful is what I feel when we’re together,
Brighter than a lucky penny,
When you’re near the rain cloud disappears, dear,
And I feel so fine just to know that you are mine.
Auntie
Gosh I’m so sorry Nic. Sending hugs and love to you. xo
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I am so sorry.
I love you.
Jenni Chiu´s last [type] ..And then I am humbled by what others have endured
I’m so sorry to hear this Nic. We’re here if you need us. Love you babe. xoxo
I am so sorry for your loss. Many hugs.
aww nic i’m so sorry that you are going through this big hugs to you & your family
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I’m so sorry honey.
<3
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Oh, Nic. I am so very sorry. Thinking of you.
Barnmaven´s last [type] ..Oooh- youre entitled all right
So sorry for your loss. It is hitting me extra hard today. You know I’m a prayer guy and I’ll be praying for you for sure.
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Still sending lots of hugs and love your way.
xoxox
PrincessJenn´s last [type] ..Prized Possessions
I know there isn’t a right thing to say — especially because I’m not a momma. But — I will say that pics and videos of Jackson put a big smile on my face every time I see them. Love you lots.
Oh Nic, I am so so so sorry. Sending tons of love and hugs. Like TONS AND TONS. XOXO
I read this earlier, and I cried for you.
I left it open, and came back to it again and again.
I keep trying to find the right words in my head, in my heart… and they are not there.
Hugs help, and love helps, and words help… but nothing helps.
I’m so sorry, Nic. I wish I could be there for you in some way other than this, other than knowing that I hurt with you, and cry with you, and look forward to happier moments with you. And I’m so thankful for your beautiful son, because he makes me happy too.
All my love.
Mandy´s last [type] ..Head Down!
Oh, so sorry to hear this. What a sad but beautiful post, all at once. It’s great that you’re allowing yourself to be sad and to slow down.
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Oh you are so strong for writing this and sharing with all of us the pain you are going through. Hugs and prayers go out to you! Love up the one you have like crazy, he is precious,
Megan
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That fucking sucks and hurts so badly. I’m sorry.
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I’m so sorry, sweetness. There are just no words. Lovin you. xoxo
Dre´s last [type] ..Sweet Darkness
I wish I could come and wrap you up in hug. Love you so much and sorry to hear this. Thinking of you.
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Oh, Nic, I am so so sorry. As you might recall, I have been through this (as in miscarriage, but obviously grief is idiosyncratic) and it is so hard. I am so happy that you have that precious lolli-licking boy by your side to keep you smiling. xoxo
oh mama, i am so sorry. huge amounts of hugs from me & the poppy. xoxoxo!!!
So very sorry for your loss.
Oh, Nic… I’m so very sorry. Thank goodness for your sweet little man. I’ll be thinking of you, my friend. xoxo
Sorry, Nic. Love and hugs to you.
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Oh sweetie I am so sorry bug hugs and xoxoxoxo to you.
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I’m so sorry, Nic.
*big, fat, squooshy bewbie hugs*
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I don’t know what to say other than I’m so sorry Nic.
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Please just remember, when it gets very dark (which is can often, the way I remember it), that you are going to be better than fine. Hug the Magoo and lean on us. We’ll all keep going, together. xxoo
which *it* can
I’m so sorry you’re going thru this. I’ve been there. Right before Mazzy. But yet I still don’t know what to say to make you feel better. It just sucks. But life goes on, the future is open and the Magoo is as adorable as ever.
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I’m sorry hun
*big hugs*
He is so adorable <3
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I wish i coukd say something to make it better. I’m so sorry, Nic. I feel awful. Love to you and your beautiful boy.
I’m so sorry, Nic.
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