maddie

i remember

and i will never forget your spectacular maddie, your beautiful family and the way that you are all changing the world in her name.

please visit friendsofmaddie.org to support families supporting babies.

for maddie

happy birthday two you…
happy birthday two you…

happy birthday precious madeline…

happy birthday two you.

our thoughts are with heather and mike today and always as they celebrate what would’ve been maddie’s 2nd birthday.

to provide support to other families with babies in NICU, please visit friendsofmaddie.org and become a friend.

WOW!

over 4 months ago, after heather and mike‘s precious madeline passed away, a video was posted of sweet maddie.  this video is my absolute favorite of all the videos heather and mike have been so generous enough to share with me… with the world.

since the moment i saw that video of maddie, paul and i have been working on jackson saying what we now refer to as “the maddie WOW.”

and finally we got it…

only now we can’t get him to stop saying it.  but it’s ok, because with the magoo’s daily repetition of “WOW,” i think of maddie and the all-encompassing beauty that it is to truly be childlike.

ps- i apologize for my poor video editing skills… and the duplication.  (i guess it just goes to show you how often jackson now says this word.  ha!)

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if you haven’t already learned about the amazing foundation heather and mike have created in maddie’s name, please familiarize yourself with Friend’s of Maddie.org to become a friend and to help babies & their families.

thoughts for the day…

starting at 7:15 this morning with “oh shit, did stellan make it through the night?”

i need to shower.  didn’t shower yesterday.  haven’t showered since the wedding

paul’s goina be late to work so that i can shower…  oops!

twitter, don’t distract me please.

where’s my bra? nevermind.

coffee…  yes, COFFEE please.

must thank this guy for his radness last night in passing along info to help this family should they come east coast.

(matt: thanks.  that’s all i got right now brotha.  oh, and HI MADDY!)

jackson now says, “WOW” but not always on demand.

must get that on video for heather and mike.

i have a book review due in a week…  i have yet to read the book.

my friend‘s book drops (i love saying that) in less than a week and he is in need of MAJOR COVERAGE…

HELLO OPRAH!!!!!!!!  ARE YOU OUT THERE?!?!?!

attempting to wrap things up with Blogher@Home though i feel completely inept.

so grateful for my partner in crime (who has a hot canadian accent) this lady… and her sweet family who went through what no mother should go through yesterday, being told by a doctor that they are calling child services on you.

fuck that doctor. i love you jenn.

magoo has 15 month check up plus vaccines in a few days… (note is on my desk.)

ohmygawd, jackson is 15 months old!!!

my downstairs neighbors and their kids YELL, SCREAM, JUMP ROPE, AND PLAY BASKETBALL IN THE APARTMENT STAIRWELL AND I WANT TO CLOBBER THEM… cuz it’s always when magoo is napping.

GO OUTSIDE KIDS!!!

i need to do laundry.  lots of it.

accomplished groceries yesterday, so that’s a plus.  we have food.

my husband is wonderful and let’s me try and save the world until i’m depleted of all energy, at which point he steps in and sets a 9 pm EST curfew for me and forces me to sleep.  (thank you, my love.)

what month is it?

ah shit, it’s tuesday… and i hate tuesdays for my friend.  and this friend too, who inspires me to be a better friend.

helped this friend last week with her precious one who is in need of GI tests run that jackson once had…

am i missing anything?

shipped out my old nursing gowns (that were barely used) to this friend yesterday in the hopes that she can get good use from them with her TWINS that are on the way.

i miss my family… wish they were closer.

jackson is napping.  i want to nap.

what should i make him for lunch today?

i really need to start training for the 1/2 marathon i’m supposedly doing in january…  shit.

could really use some starbucks right now.


perspective

i think most everyone would agree with me that this summer (so far) has been entirely chaotic.  within the last month alone, i have been asked to participate in two amazing projects.  both of which are incredible and have led me to making some life-changing friendships.  my freelancing has come to a complete halt as i have missed so many deadlines that i cannot even remember how many i had to begin with.

oh yeah… and there is that book that i’m writing.

don’t lose faith in me dear friends…  your write-ups will come.

but this morning, while my sleepy, traveling magoo naps, i sit at my computer and think “WOW” because The Spohr’s are Multiplying.

heather is pregnant.  beautiful heather is pregnant.

i weep and smile and constantly think this…

WOW

(the above WOW video is my absolute favorite video of maddie, and it’s all that is going through my head today.)

since april, when precious maddie passed away, i have been given a different and unexpected perspective on parenting… on life.  and i’m pretty sure a lot of you readers who are parents can relate to this.  because, as i have learned since april, tragedy can strike in the blink of an eye.

i check on jackson more often during his naps.  i worry more when his naps last longer than usual.  (sometimes i even make paul go in and check because i’m scared of what i will find… to be perfectly honest.)  i take him to the ER when he falls and bumps his head.  reading heather and mike‘s story… maddie’s story… has given me perspective.  and i don’t share this candidly to make this post about me.  i write this to thank heather and mike for reminding me, reminding all of us just how precious life is…

and that perspective is good… it is needed.

that’s all i’ve got today folks…  tears of joy, and constant thoughts of WOW.

the deadlines can wait… again.

life is too precious.

congratulations heather and mike.


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